Realisation

A weird feeling this morning.
I'm currently in the back of my mate's car being driven to work but have a feeling of being completely down. I had a sudden realisation when I got up this morning that I've been feeling like this for most of the week.
Apologies to those close to me for not saying anything sooner but I've only just realised myself.

Looking back through the week so far (only 2 days, I know) I haven't been able to fully concentrate on work. Truthfully, I haven't been able to concentrate on work at all. My mind has been elsewhere and I don't know where.

I think maybe some of the reason is this job evaluation mess that me and other colleagues are in. Our supposed "employers" (who, in fact aren't) messing with our lives and our future and thinking it's ok.
Yes, we've been told not to worry and the situation will be sorted out but that's not stopping us worry. It's hit me harder than I thought it would.

In writing this, I guess that is the main cause of this week's downward spiral along with a few other minor issues.

Apologies to all who work with me and interact in some way.

BYL.